
I remember the motorcycle he rode.
I remember sneaking off with him when he was sixteen. I was fourteen, full of elaborate excuses; girlfriends who vouched for me. Wind in my face, the noise, the leather jacket and the helmet. I saved up, hid them at his house.
I remember when he told me he was gay.
I remember how cool I played it. “I wondered,” I said. I thought, what were the chances he was wrong?
I remember every unworthy person he dated. I’d ask him, “Are you sure? What do you see?”
He’d say, “You’re my best friend.”








